Honestly I have been crazy depressed it was my TOM 😝so that means being completely drained for me. I have severe iron deficiency anemia and the older I get the worse my TOM gets, some days I am so weak I can't walk up stairs (thank god for my downstairs bathroom). I am seeing a doc about this problem of mine so hopefully it gets fixed!!
On another personal note I told ya' ll about my past eating problems weeeellllll I have IBS-C which is irritable bowel syndrome with constipation. While at my doc on Monday (blood work) she told me about a new med for IBS-C called Linzess I started it today and will update on how it's going
What I wouldn't give to look like this again ;)
Trying To Sparkle ......
"Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world." -Marilyn Monroe
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Monday, March 11, 2013
Motivation
I suck!! I have not been faithfully sticking to my diet and have gained 3lbs !!! I need to get this shit DONE!! I have already had a Reese cup but I'm done .. Not even buying them for the kids for Easter
Saturday, March 2, 2013
A little truth
If your on a journey share your story, if your naturally skinny SHUT THE FUCK UP! Fat girls don't want to hear that shit ;)
The pic of the girl walking away .. Yeah that's my wallpaper on my phone
The pic of the girl walking away .. Yeah that's my wallpaper on my phone
Morning :(
So I'm not only counting calories I'm freaking tracking points with this amazing little app itrackbites . I get on the scale and I fucking gained 2lbs :(
I can also feel my arm fat giggle as I write this ... Man I'm a fatass!!!
Time to get up have some coffee and get this day going ... Watching my niece tonight so my little brother and his woman can have a much needed break ;) plus tomorrow is his birthday and she's one of the cutest bugs I know ;) I'm not bias you can see for your self .. My little brother and his girls 😊
I can also feel my arm fat giggle as I write this ... Man I'm a fatass!!!
Time to get up have some coffee and get this day going ... Watching my niece tonight so my little brother and his woman can have a much needed break ;) plus tomorrow is his birthday and she's one of the cutest bugs I know ;) I'm not bias you can see for your self .. My little brother and his girls 😊
Thursday, February 28, 2013
History ;)
A little history on my weight loss journey I have struggled my whole life to be skinny.
This time it's different, see I quit smoking it will be a year in April. I quit to be healthy I wanted to run again. This time I'm not starving myself, I will be exercising I AM DOING THIS THE RIGHT WAY!!
I say this because I have suffered from anorexia and bulimia since I was 13. Doing this the healthy way is harder for me, my first instinct is starve myself then when I feel week eat and I mean EAT after that comes the puking.. Lots of puking! I also ate a lot of laxatives in the early years.. so many that I now have pretty serious bowel problems I can't even poop on my own! Then comes the issue of my teeth man I had beautiful teeth, now I have cavities and have had to have some of my back ones pulled out. This is all results of the starving and puking!!! It makes me sick to say I struggle every day, everyday I want to puke, I want to flush all of my problems, my anger, and my sadness it's sick but it makes me feel better, in control something I can control. That's all an eating disorder is, something you think you control. It's been 22 years since I first puked, 22 freaking years. Every day I wake up and tell myself "today you will eat healthy and you will not puke"
I don't want this to be all about my freaking problem, I handle it pretty well. I also have a great husband that keeps me in line ;) HAHAHAHAHAHA !! That's the funniest thing I think I've said ;) but seriously he has helped me a lot get through some tough times. When it got bad he made me go to therapy it helped. So on to bigger and better things ...
This time it's different, see I quit smoking it will be a year in April. I quit to be healthy I wanted to run again. This time I'm not starving myself, I will be exercising I AM DOING THIS THE RIGHT WAY!!
I say this because I have suffered from anorexia and bulimia since I was 13. Doing this the healthy way is harder for me, my first instinct is starve myself then when I feel week eat and I mean EAT after that comes the puking.. Lots of puking! I also ate a lot of laxatives in the early years.. so many that I now have pretty serious bowel problems I can't even poop on my own! Then comes the issue of my teeth man I had beautiful teeth, now I have cavities and have had to have some of my back ones pulled out. This is all results of the starving and puking!!! It makes me sick to say I struggle every day, everyday I want to puke, I want to flush all of my problems, my anger, and my sadness it's sick but it makes me feel better, in control something I can control. That's all an eating disorder is, something you think you control. It's been 22 years since I first puked, 22 freaking years. Every day I wake up and tell myself "today you will eat healthy and you will not puke"
I don't want this to be all about my freaking problem, I handle it pretty well. I also have a great husband that keeps me in line ;) HAHAHAHAHAHA !! That's the funniest thing I think I've said ;) but seriously he has helped me a lot get through some tough times. When it got bad he made me go to therapy it helped. So on to bigger and better things ...
Here we go ....
I have been thinking about this whole blog thing for a while, it was just on the back burner.
I hope to track weight loss and post about all the crraaaazzzzy and useless things I know :) not to mention my super amazing family ....
These are my dorks in order of age it shows their personality also :)
I hope to track weight loss and post about all the crraaaazzzzy and useless things I know :) not to mention my super amazing family ....
These are my dorks in order of age it shows their personality also :)
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